How am I livin?...

I dun feel like I belong there...dunno wat's happenin...I thot everything is goin to be fine...Bt i keep havin that negative thots...I wanted to help the com...esp sigit...so he wuldn't be so stress...bt...I dunno...I juz feel like I dun belong there...and I can't wait to get out of there and give my post to another one who is more capable and suitable for this post...wat's happenin to me?...
I dun wan to cry...I'm thinkin of nt caring and nt participatin...so I will nt mind so much...bt...yet I wan to help...I'm contradictin myself...wth...I really dunno wat to do le...I'm juz idiotic,...stupid...silly...now I'm feelin so useless...and today ppl fierce at me for no reason...wat's happenin...