doubting myself...

This is juz something i wanna say...

Once again, I losing confidence in myself...I think I'm so weak...sometimes I wished I never ever learn dizi. It brings me more unhappiness den happiness. I feel so stupid...I mean, I can't even learn it well after such a long time...damn useless me...But it definitely bring me satisfaction. During the time when I dint learn dizi, I actually feel that I am TOTALLY useless, at least it gives me some ideas of what i going to be in the future. And I finally have something to do, not staying at home doing nth. Now, I have an aim/goal (thks goodness) thks cory for listening to my "stupid" nagging...I so damn selfish...but let me finish what I have to say...I don't expect anyone to read this...juz wanna say it...
Nevertheless, I 'm a TOTALLY USELESS gurl! Is this juz one of my growing up process, hmm...maybe...
BEING CRAZY AND LAUGHING LIKE A MAD WOMAN IS A GOOD WAY OF RELIEVING STRESS.
SIGINING OFF*
JAce