J with Ace

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Wednesday, February 03, 2010

Human beings...

Can you please stop saying things you don't mean?

Don't make me misunderstand your meaning?

And make a fool of myself.

I'm not exactly that dumb and insensitive...

I sense things and I FEEL things.

Stop assuming that I have no feelings and will not know the hidden meaning behind the beautiful facade you build up.

I just want to know the truth.

I don't need you to shout the hurtful truth in my face

But please, stop saying what you don't mean

That's even more hurtful than telling me the truth.

I seriously hate people like you.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

So long till now...Another year has passed huh?

I'm still the same old ways...I really need to change, but yet...gosh...

I don't know how long I can still continue...but I don't really want to give up right now...

Perhaps it's because I don't know which path I should go, which way I should walk.

Initially, I thought that maybe, just maybe, I have a way to go...and when the road started disappearing, I'm starting to get scared and confused. Where should I go now? What should I aimed for now?

Anyway, I started to realise how different I had become as compared to the old self during secondary.

Well, I'm still grateful that my days had become more colourful with all my new friends around me :)

So I will hold on neverthesless.

May things be better all over the world, life happier.

Aiya, Just the world be better!! Peace :)

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Promos is SUPER near...next week, yes, no mistake, IT'S NEXT WEEK!

but well, humans need to take a break and that's why I'm here :)

Just updated AJCO blog before coming here, haha, posted the song that Maureen introduced to me recently, The Musician from DGrayman. Rather nice and thus I posted it on CO blog.

OKay, I know it's random for me to do but I'm sure there's nothing wrong with introducing nice music to ajco peeps, haha. And anyway, my posts on CO blog had always been super random :D

Anyway, I'm awfully stress up, awfully afraid I wouldn't be able to pass. But I must not be bothered by my lack of confidence! and neither should anyone ( if there's any) who's reading my blog should be!

I came across this short chinese story from the book I borrowed. A chinese storybook.

The story goes:

There's a couple who is deeply in love but they are living in poverty and could not afford their own house, and the man promise the woman that one day, they will have their own pair of keys to their own house.

And finally, that day came and they owned their own first house and house keys:)

However, after some time, the man had an affair with another woman and stopped going home. Many people advised the woman (wife of the man) to change the door and locks so that even if the man comes back, he wouldn't be able to enter but the woman does not hear any of it because she BELIEVE in the promise the man made to her...and she waits.

The man bought an even better and luxurious house for his mistress and even lost the keys to his old house but he did not bother. Eventually, he breaks up with his mistress and starting to miss his wife. One day, he found his old house's keys by chance and desire to go back home. but he was afraid that the wife will not even let him in and had even changed the lock. Nevertheless, he went back.

The touching part came. :) The man was shock when he saw his old house. The whole building where his old house was, had already changed the old doors in strong metal door, except his own old house, where the old wooden door remains.

The man's tears fall. Because he knew, his wife still remembers, and believes that, with the keys to the door of love, happiness will always be there right in front of you.

True. I'm touched by this story no matter whether it is true or not. Only when you believe in love, you will love and be loved.

Money does not make the world goes round. LOVE does. :)


[A special post]

JAce (wish me luck for promos! )

Sunday, September 06, 2009

A whole new post.

Yo!

Finally back to this super super dead post...juz read all my old posts from last year...

'O' level was over and i did get good results for it! :) Super unexpected..but well...it's still the same now...juz that the 'O' had juz 'UPGRADED' to 'A'...haha

I juz changed my aim, with simply a change in the letter 'O' to letter 'A', yet the level of difficulty had been raised to more than a few levels higher.

And once again, I'm still in CO...not in AICO anymore, but juz with a stroke more on the I : AJCO.

All right, now it feels like everything is a joke...same old position, same conductor, same instructor.

But well, different president, different committee, different teachers, different way of doing things.

It may seem like nothing had changed, but in actual fact, everything had changed without me realising it.

Maybe I juz never bother to take out time to look carefully at these changes.

School changed, with new friends, classmates and teachers, and well, new type of homework. And I think...a new brain? haha...because I feel like I'm getting dumber, a little bit more hopeless, a little more emoness...

Haha...now I'm putting down the thing that I used to cherish the most...I really can't play anymore. The more I wanted to, the more I'm bad at it...Ironically...

Perhaps now I don't even want to care anymore, with all the tons and tons of homework pressing on me, all the stupid stuff which I wanted to ignore but can't. It seems like I had to move on from there onwards...

Well anyway, I juz hope things will get better from here. And PLEASE! LET ME PASS MY PROMOS AND GET PROMOTED! I juz started with this new school life and don't let me end it here. I WANT TO CONTINUE THIS JOURNEY!

I shall end it here.

JAce

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

I realised I have a lot of vengence and hatred inside me...so much that I feel horrible...

I like goin AICO...definitely...but I juz dun seen to mix with them...I feel like nobody knew of my existence...

Perhaps that's why I only feel truely happy during practices with them, when they will start listening to what I had to say, when they start realising I'm there...

I dun mind if u say Im sensitive or too petty, but that's what I feel...maybe I'm an attention-seeker? Or maybe I juz need a true friend? Someone who is willing to listen to me...rather than ignoring me like what others do...

Did I cause people a lot of trouble? Or I'm a bad person? Or there's juz something wrong wiz me?

Why didn't anyone say that in my face? Why nobody give me a chance to change?

Why even the one whom I thought is my true friend dun finish listening to what I had to say?

I thought I juz nid some time...some time to get use to them and mix well...

Well...I think I'm wrong...very wrong...

Or I juz can't get along well with people?

What must I do to make people like me? Or simply, REALISE I'm there?

Last time, I used to dread goin home, and prefer to stay in school and co...Now, it's the other way round...

Damn, this is a super emo post, but I feel really...good now...saying what I had to say at one go...

I can't get myself to say all this in their face...so this is the only way I can take this heavy stone off my heart...

JAce

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Rockin'!!!

'O' level is so damn close nw.

HA

HA

okay, my chemistry still bad as ever...haiz, my mock exams...like shit...

Let us see whether i will be able to create any miracles tis and nxt mth...haha

空白的世界未必没有色彩, 而花花世界也未必快乐。no link. dotz

拼命读书却觉得豪无目的。

想了一千遍,一万遍,也不知未来要干吗。

百分之百未知数。

啊。。。算了。。。

Saturday, August 16, 2008

I dun wan to go back...we nt tt important anw, rite? so y they still wan us to go back? I detest that place, because of the ppl, because of those pairs of eyes that 'locked' onto us, want us dead, want us to be ashamed...I only like to go there and practise songs, but now if we go back, they will only compare us with them rite? furthermore we are older...

I'm losing it bit by bit...studying has neutralised it?...All those dream...may be just crap, and just disappear suddenly...It just going to disappear in my hands? Or am I going to do something to make it a reality? Im not sure if im going to hang on to it? Continue? or give up?
Or maybe treat it as juz a growing period of my life?...Im not sure about it now...