I realised I have a lot of vengence and hatred inside me...so much that I feel horrible...

I like goin AICO...definitely...but I juz dun seen to mix with them...I feel like nobody knew of my existence...

Perhaps that's why I only feel truely happy during practices with them, when they will start listening to what I had to say, when they start realising I'm there...

I dun mind if u say Im sensitive or too petty, but that's what I feel...maybe I'm an attention-seeker? Or maybe I juz need a true friend? Someone who is willing to listen to me...rather than ignoring me like what others do...

Did I cause people a lot of trouble? Or I'm a bad person? Or there's juz something wrong wiz me?

Why didn't anyone say that in my face? Why nobody give me a chance to change?

Why even the one whom I thought is my true friend dun finish listening to what I had to say?

I thought I juz nid some time...some time to get use to them and mix well...

Well...I think I'm wrong...very wrong...

Or I juz can't get along well with people?

What must I do to make people like me? Or simply, REALISE I'm there?

Last time, I used to dread goin home, and prefer to stay in school and co...Now, it's the other way round...

Damn, this is a super emo post, but I feel really...good now...saying what I had to say at one go...

I can't get myself to say all this in their face...so this is the only way I can take this heavy stone off my heart...

JAce