Chaotic...

Few days nvr blog...isit? haha...I lost track of time...yup...Anyway...I kind of chiongin...erm, am I?...I'm seemed to be kinda slack as compared to the others...Never really kind of revise...instead, I still in quite a mood to play my dizi...haha...weird...actually I one whole wk nvr really go practise...except for today... :) Worryin for my physics woh...Dun understand alot abt kinematics and dynamics...haiz...So I studyin that chapter now...haha...Lalala~
Played with my dizi today...nvr really practise...kinda slack bah...haha...yup...den I do my physics ws really...very...S...L...O...W...L...Y...
OKay...I'm lame...haha...bt I manage to finish it anw...I think shld start to plan for my day tml :)

JAce

What did I did wrong again?...

I did wrong alot of stuff I suppose...I feel like ppl are avoiding me...Bt I can see that things are getting fine...I have served my purpose...Never ever feel belong to tt place...and them...time to get use to it...Havin that super bad temper nowadays...Dunno wat's wrong with me...Crazy?...maybe...Bt I juz feel like I'm being used...wat can I do?...I'm nt a toy...neither I am someone fun to play with...It's nt being fair to me...maybe I'm selfish...dun wan to help u...but tt hurts...I'm yur friend rig? nt yur tool I suppose?...So...can stop using me?...please...
Maybe I'm bad...maybe I'm not a worthy friend...bt there's no nid for tt...How can I trust u?...How DO I trust u?...

Lalala~ Let's chiong!

Woosh~ okay...it's the last day of holiday...bt this one week dun even seem like holiday, like no difference...hmm...longer time for slpin maybe? haha...anyway...abit tired...dizzy...again...haha...no strength only la...and I'm nt goin to faint...haha :)
Anyway...went out studyin today...den I realised alot of amaths topic I haven't master yet...and emaths too...okay...Muz master them b4 final yrs...science too woh...dunno how to handle the 3 sciences...such a struggle...I mean I get confused easily by sciences...esp physics...wat dynamics...speed...pressure...and now gt the thermal energy transfer thingie...wat conduction, convection and radiation...sounds simple, bt I was like " wat the heck?!"...haha...having many qn marks ard me nw...yeah yeah...I wanna play dizi! haha... temptation...haha...Tempted by dizi...haha...wat am I tokin abt??...haha...stop here...go study loh! Let's chiong!!~ lalala~

Xin fan...

Stress?...I dunno...maybe bah...kinda rare for me to add in this way...maybe coz I'm bothering abt kao ji de shi at the same time...Need someone to help me...bt I think there's no one bah...depend on myself better...I dunno y I actin in this way...crazy?...maybe bah...exams start from first of oct...keep thinkin abt it...think till I abit...haiz...watever...can't think nw...end here...

Haiz...

What a weird day I had today...the only word i can use to describe my day...Yup...finish my chinese extra lesson today...erm nt many ppl i guess...and the lesson was somehow...haha...shall nt say any further...and Yeah! I finally finish the Digital Fortress...Another story with a twist...haha...shocking, erm...surprising, and rather interestin ending...Woosh~ and me and cat actually kind of "play" with erm,...whoever...I being quite mean in how i say...probably coz I having quite a bad mood these few days...And feeling kinda guilty now for saying all that...yup so...I wanted to say sorry to that girl la...I dun really like her way of using so many vulgar,...make my day worse bah...but I dun think she in any way hurt by us...haha...Dun even know y I say sorry...haha...haiz...I think I had forgotten most of what I had studied previously...And I hate myself...for boastin...eee...even I'm disgusted by my own actions...no wonder other ppl dislike me...I apologise...If I make anyone unhappy for what I had said...and what I had done...Sorry...

woosh~ some actions have to be taken...

kk...I know examz are comin...bt I juz stop thinkin abt kao ji de shi...haiz...can my cher at least tell me wat i shld do?...when I register for the grade thingy?...and wat grade I can take...haiz...but he busy wif his 'A'...can't blame him too...bt I anxious ...
lalala~ and I'm slackin currently...maybe coz no lesson?...haha...and maybe partly coz exams are coming...I guess I must put in more effort, in both studies and dizi...woosh~
Anw...I'm abit stuck here...dunno wat to do also...seems like my skills are nt like b4...worse I think...have to buck up...if nt ar...I really dunno how to continue le...haha...
And I takin this too seriously?...Am I even suppose to believe in this?...It's tough...bt at least I still think I can go through it...at least I'm nt scare...Continue?...bt how?...how to?...

Bad day huh??

Sianz...feelin damn uncomfortable these few days...get dizzy quite easily...make me can't concentrate on practisin too...haha...watever...bt realise that time is runnin out...and final yr examz are comin real soon...woosh~ tt means we may have to chiong during this week liao...haha...bt I like can't focus...my mind will wander off...alamak...Y I'm in tis state when impt exams are coming soon...WAKE UP!!
Haha...everyone muz jiayou woh...Dun wan study also muz study...We have NO choice...haha...Yeah~ this sun no pa chamber prac...My free day!~~~ :)
lalala~ DUnno wat to tok abt...Oh ya, I bought a T-shirt which is less den 10 bucks, cool~ at least ppl wuldn't say me y every time wear same shirt...haha

JAce

Damn it...

Fine...I'm in a super bad mood today...and wth, wat a nice thing I saw...That's it! hu u think u are? Blame every single one...tryin to make us feel guilty...wat the hell...U think u the pathetic one? U think u the only one sufferin? U think U the one who is being bullied? Think carefully! Y pull me in when I'm nt involved?! I'm nt happy with u and I tellin u nw... and U think I like u hu will say out every single name, juz to make them feel ashamed and guilty of themselves? U make my blood boil! what do u wan frm us? beg u? say sorry? treat u like a queen? who do u think u are? And when did i ever tok to u? huh?!
Fine, i give up...u win...